24.3.04

I am happier than I have been in a while and still tired. It is funny how you can feel like your spinning your wheels and still get things done. I am becoming a lot more musical in my old age and I like it. Now if I could just see the sun on a regular basis then everything would fall into place. I saw some sun today and it was beautiful.

posted by Nikki Kilgore at 2:52 PM

1.2.04

Positivism reigns today. A little Teitur and some coffee, I am ready to go. Giving in to creative urges is the best way to spend a Sunday, I say. We saw the most interesting band last night. Cyro Baptista and Beat the Donkey. The energy was enough to last me the rest of February. Now I have to get off of my proverbial duff and do some work for my band. This is not the year of my discontent but of my self-discovery and artistic awakening. I love it when that happens.

posted by Nikki Kilgore at 12:36 PM

2.1.04

Happy New Year! It is time for the newness to begin.

posted by Nikki Kilgore at 5:50 PM

10.8.03

bitter party of one your table is ready. i can't sleep. i woke up at 8 a.m. thinking of a man, i have no business thinking of. he is not for me. but every time i see him he makes me warm inside. where are the nice ones. the one that are for you, that make you warm inside. please step up. because my dreams could be filled with so much more. if only i could see him. Jesus, there we go again. anyway the show last night was great. i haven't had that much fun in a long while. i am still plotting my new beginnings and if they resemble anything like last night then damn, it was all worth it.

posted by Nikki Kilgore at 9:01 AM

29.7.03

I got a new attitude. just got back from NYC. loved it. now i know that the artistic nature in me is still alive. i could do with a few rooftop parties in VA. unfortunately it doesn't work that way down here. i am going to work on the skills and contemplate bigger thangs. like music for a living and loving someone more than I love myself. we'll get there. even if it hurts.

posted by Nikki Kilgore at 6:05 PM

11.7.03

I am bleary eyed and sweating, there is lighting outside and my brother is seeing the final performance (for him) of one of my favorite bands/friends. I am alone again on a friday night. not that I am not loved. spiritually no doubt. romantically. questionable. but that is probably my fault. to shady I think. not available. emotionally that is. want to be more. working really hard on that . but instead of writing songs. i am sitting here and writing this. to no one. i think. unless you are there. wish I knew. peace.

posted by Nikki Kilgore at 9:41 PM

23.6.03

ok. here is the deal, right? we were discussing all of the minorities coming together as one and forming an agreed upon political/social platform that we could support. until inevitably we would become in essence the majority possessing all of the power that comes with that. but here is the rub. and it might just be me. but I believe there is something fundamentally right in the person that is working against the tyranny. ya know. against the man. if you become the man. do you become the tyranny and everything that comes with it? just a question. or are the history of and the present oppression of my people to any degree, all that I know? I have no frame of reference to draw from, other than, small black female, who grew up in predominately white world. not complaining, just saying.

posted by Nikki Kilgore at 10:43 PM